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10 years...Note, this post and the post I link too are about heroin and use and relapse and other possible triggers. it means a lot to me if anyone reads all of both posts but if you can't don't.
Today marks 10 years clean off heroin... wow.
i wrote somthing 5 years ago. It still fits.
Over the past 5 years a lot has changed, my little sister found a great man got married.
My daughter hasn't stopped growing. Cancer seems to be lying dormant and it's nice.
This past year has been the hardest. Depression hit, I wasn't supported but treated badly for my depression. Dumped and thrown out and replaced with something 10 years younger than me.
Suicidal, broken and wishing for death. Not even 2 weeks ago I thought about relapsing and taking that sweet horrible drug into my veins so I can't feel the pain anymore. I wanted it to end.
I almost went back to heroin... It was hard for me not too but I pushed passed it.
I've been in a new fresh relationship for a few days
Vanguard, Chapter 1: DuncanDuncan's Journal: Day 1288
I consider myself a good man. I respect women, elders, my equals, and the dead. I say a morning prayer, and an evening one. Hell, I even thank the gods for a meal, instead of immediately chowing down in the voracious manner as the other soldiers here do. By all logical means, I should be in paradise. No really, not just because I'm a good man, but also because I should be dead by now. So I ask myself: why, oh gods up there, have I ended up in hell?
1288 days. 1288 days of my life have been spent in this misery, and I'm beginning to lose faith in the glory I was promised. Some of the rookies still live in their ignorant bliss, but I've lived long enough to realize that there's not much glory to find here. “Sing the songs of glory and march into battle—-join The Crusade today!”. Such were the words of the posters The Crusade has spread all over The Mortal Realm. Gullible fools practically stand in line for these songs of glory that th
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